I experienced a great disappointment this last week that has become a great blessing. I love how God works like that. My husband and I were signed up to take a class out of state that we had been trying to attend for 18 months. Much preparation had been made to finagle schedules with our four kids, babysitting, and school. I was looking forward to an inspiring three days of expansive learning with my husband. Then he called to inform me that he had a required conference at work and we were going to have to cancel the class. My reaction? Well, I am mindful to only allow truth to remain in my thoughts so devastation was not present, but I was very saddened. As is my habit, I went and kneeled to discuss the situation with my Father in Heaven.
“I don’t understand. I prayed about whether this was right for us to do. I felt it was Thy will for our family and everything fell into place. What happened?” In my mind’s eye I saw a blank, white piece of paper. This seemed to aptly describe my current feelings: flat, plain, blah. Then this blank piece of paper folded into a beautiful origami flower and the words came into my mind, “Let it be beautiful.” I knew in my heart that there was a hidden blessing here I couldn’t currently see. I had a peaceful calm fill my soul that seemed to whisper, “When you trust me with all things, they always turn out for thy good.” I knew it was my choice: I could look at this situation from the outside and be hurt, angry, and disappointed or I could see it from the inside and trust there was a gift I had yet to discover.
This story is still unfolding, or rather “folding”. The appointed time for the class is coming up soon. I can already see some blessings because of the change and have faith there are more to come. For now I am content to leave it in His hands and “Let it be beautiful.”